Life truly destroyed what to do?

Seven years ago start taking drug finasteride aka propecia for hair loss.


Forgot about side effects and had libido problems while on the drug without knowing why.


Last year move into flatshar to save money for a house - since this recession was supposed to be worst ever and buying was mad we were told.


Flat'mate' turns out to have aspergers - didn't mention this in the ad - and hardly talks, leaves lights out, puts his clothes in my wash, turns off the heating so I'm freezing...


Have panic attack at work mid last year, thought it was because of work harassment but instead was side effect of hormone drug propecia.


Then go back on drug and **** shrinks, finally figure out the cause then stop taking drug.


A week later aspie boy has slashed my leather jacket the horrible bastard cos I looked at him funny.


He couldn't get into nightclubs so was jealous. Plus he was a middle class **** while I come from poor stock.





No living room just a small cold room with crap tv so just stay in my room after work, no TV, and masturbate to internet porn all night, reducing testosterone levels more.


Tried to move out of flat but landlord tells me I have to sign new lease and stay or else move out next day, going back on his word.





Three weeks after quitting propecia my dick and balls shrink and I'm impotent for life, lose muscle, good looks and job.


Will be on testosterone replacemnet therapy for life which might not even work.


Also should add my old flatmate before the aspie knew I was taking the pills and also Viagra - cos I didn't know why i had no libido- and told my friends behind my back I used viagra but not propecia.





Should I be mad at all these characters?





Is it my fault, theirs, a bit of both or what? Should I get revenge?





Where does blame lie:


1)me for buying drug


2)aspie for lying about the flat then trying and succeeding to make my life a misery and thus making susceptibilty to drug sides worse, rendering me impotent for life?


3)Landlord for not watching the flat, allowing it to be grotty and unclean,not vetting flatmates and crucially not letting me move out and being threatening in doing so


4)Previous flatmate who knew I took propecia and had sides but didn't warn me and told friends about viagra, plus left the flat leaving me to have to find a new one


5)Previous workmate who tried to make my life a misery but harassing me and making insinuations about my background, sexuality etc


6)the drug company Merck


7)the spivs who sold me it online without warning





THANKS FOR READING PLEASE GIVE ME YOUR THOUGHTSLife truly destroyed what to do?
You. You are at fault. No one else is at fault. The fault is yours. Face your bad choices. Unless you admit fault you will never succeed at anything.Life truly destroyed what to do?
You are the only one to blame. You took a drug without knowing the side effects. You could have moved out of the flat. You and the flat mate were the ones who allowed it to be unclean and grotty. Take responsibility for your own mistakes and quit trying to blame others.
You put yourself in this situation, only you can get out of it. If you looked at life in a different way and was determined on building it back up then it wouldn't be so bad. Try changing something about your life that you're not happy with, one at a time. For example, try a new hobby where you'll meet new people - friends. Try a new job, new skills, get some exercise, if you can see yourself looking better it will give you the incentive to go out and change. Don't spend your time listing the possible things that got you in this situation, try thinking about changing! All the time you're feeling sorry for yourself, you could be turning it around. Soon you'll wonder where your life went. Just spend some time thinking about all the things you can do, brainstorm it if you want. just keep going and never look back, you'll make it if you want it enough :)