Whose fault is my awful life and what can I do about it?

Seven years ago start taking drug finasteride aka propecia for hair loss.


Forgot about side effects and had libido problems while on the drug without knowing why.


Last year move into flatshar to save money for a house - since this recession was supposed to be worst ever and buying was mad we were told.


Flat'mate' turns out to have aspergers - didn't mention this in the ad - and hardly talks, leaves lights out, puts his clothes in my wash, turns off the heating so I'm freezing...


Have panic attack at work mid last year, thought it was because of work harassment but instead was side effect of hormone drug propecia.


Then go back on drug and d!)Q shrinks, finally figure out the cause then stop taking drug.


A week later aspie boy has slashed my leather jacket the horrible bastard cos I looked at him funny.


He couldn't get into nightclubs so was jealous. Plus he was a middle class tw@t while I come from poor stock.





No living room just a small cold room with crap tv so just stay in my room after work, no TV, and masturb8 to internet porn all night, reducing testosterone levels more.


Tried to move out of flat but landlord tells me I have to sign new lease and stay or else move out next day, going back on his word.





Three weeks after quitting propecia my diq and ballz shrink and I'm impotent for life, lose muscle, good looks and job.


Will be on testosterone replacemnet therapy for life which might not even work.


Also should add my old flatmate before the aspie knew I was taking the pills and also Viagra - cos I didn't know why i had no libido- and told my friends behind my back I used viagra but not propecia.





Should I be mad at all these characters?





Is it my fault, theirs, a bit of both or what? Should I get revenge?





Where does blame lie:


1)me for buying drug


2)aspie for lying about the flat then trying and succeeding to make my life a misery and thus making susceptibilty to drug sides worse, rendering me imp0tent for life?


3)Landlord for not watching the flat, allowing it to be grotty and unclean,not vetting flatmates and crucially not letting me move out and being threatening in doing so


4)Previous flatmate who knew I took propecia and had sides but didn't warn me and told friends about viagra use, plus left the flat leaving me to have to find a new one then made fun of my plight


5)Previous workmate who tried to make my life a misery but harassing me and making insinuations about my background, sexuality etc


6)the drug company Merck


7)the spivs who sold me it online without due warning


8)Reagan for ushering in an era of medical underfunding and corruption so that the FDA becomes a toothless corrupt body apt to pass approval of dangerous drugs for big pharma


So now I'll never have kids or a healthy life again - revenge?Whose fault is my awful life and what can I do about it?
Your life is your fault.Whose fault is my awful life and what can I do about it?
Lyric your all heart- but in fairness your not wrong.
Let go and move on with your life; you will be happier in the long run. Life can be difficult and there are plenty of people who are mean, nasty and insensative. But there are also good and kind people too. Do your best to forgive and forget for your own sake because you will benefit from this! Don't become what you hate, there is enough revenge and pettiness in life.





Sounds like you might benefit from some counseling to help let go of your anger and focus on the good things in life. I also recommend exercise; cardio to help reduce stress and weight lifting to boost testosterone levels. Doctors don't have answers or medication for everything and the body has an amazing ability to heal itself.





Check out this website:





http://stress.about.com/od/relationships/a/forgiveness.htm

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